Seeing an ex in public is not ideal

I will say, I didn't expect to spend my first pride of the year seeing my ex with her new girl. At a place.. two hours away.... right in front of me on line.

I had such an amazing day! I went alone to a pride, I felt really cute and saw a few singers in concert that I love. I worked pretty hard on my outfit, which turned out great in my opinion. I was sad I missed the parade but seeing all the cute vendors and people just expressing themselves was so inspiring. I was really proud of myself for the whole day, I had even been cleaning and productive that morning!

Seeing her there, especially with her whatever person was certainly a shock. I had felt good all day, and then all of a sudden as I was walking to the end of the line I got this weird pit in my stomach. And I only ever get this weird feeling randomly when it involves her, like a sixth sense kind of thing. Now I didn't exactly have a reason to think she would be there, but looking back now I should have expected it. But I DEFINITELY would not have expected them together, which I guess I also should have? She had checked my social that morning (we don't follow each other any more so that should have been a trigger) which I think was to see if I was there? Who knows. She later checked them again which is when I did post about it. I wanted to be petty and message say hey I know you know I was there since you saw me. But I decided that wouldn't really bring anything good for anyone.

It made me want to leave and crawl into a whole and die. But I was determined to finish my fun day!! Which I did! I'm so happy I forced myself to stay because the concert was great. It was pretty much all breakup songs said from my perspective so I thought that was funny (and I may have hoped she felt bad during it, but that's just wishful thinking). It did make me sad that she wasn't looking too good and I don't mean that as a dig. I still think she is the most beautiful person I've ever seen. She just looked so worn out.. which upset me that this new bitch obviously wasn't taking good care of her like she deserves. But that is the person she chose so there is not a whole lot I can do about it now. I just hope eventually, what I taught her about unconditional love (even if I ruined that in the end) becomes what she realizes she deserves too. She was so easy to love and take care of, and I can tell this chick doesn't deserve her time or feelings.