The (money) Struggle is Real

It's annoying how money is such a taboo topic, and it's no different for me. I have always been uncomfortable talking about money, with anyone! Whether it was an partner, friend, or family member.

Money is currently a big stresser in my life (isn't it with everyone though) and I have no idea how to ask for help or go to anyone about it. And even if I did, how could they even help me? I don't like asking for hand outs, so the most they could do is listen and although being able to vent may alleviate the stress a little, having money would really be the only way to fix this problem.

It feels like such an embarrassment to say "Hey I don't have enough money to pay my bills or buy food." But shouldn't people want to help when that's said. A coworker had noticed I have been losing weight and he asked why. My response? Food is expensive. To which he just laughed it off as if that was a joke. I can't imagine someone telling me they are losing a lot of weight due to not being able to buy food and laughing about it.

Either I get lucky and win the lottery soon, which would be impressive since I can't afford to play, or I just have to continue working my ass off for minimal pay to barely be able to scrape by.