When will I actually be better?

Every time I think I'm getting better I do something stupid like checking her socials and I get butt hurt all over again. Like I do not need to check. I KNOW they're together. I don't need confirmation anymore. I think I continue to check in hopes that it's over? They they feel the same pain I do. But that is a childish want, and even if they did, what would that do for me? I need to get over it. I need to move on and I don't know how. I tried the old fashion way of just getting under someone new, and that turned out to be harder than I thought. I just want to move on, to not hurt, for it to not make me feel sick anymore.

I don't even understand why I'm still stuck on it. Well I do, I know because I was in love and now that I'm thinking I might be a lesbian and I was just never in love before because I had only dated men before. But holy shit this sucks! Like I just need to move far away and start a new live apparently. This shit is getting old, my mind literally created a mental veil for the trauma, what else do I need to do??